Peaches, my T said that those who go through trauma or abandonment are far more sensitive to reading the body language and subconscious intentions of others. It is one reason they make sure good T's when they are healed up! I think you should go with your heart and instincts on all this. You do know what the truth is about how all of this impacts you. Stay truthful to yourself and what you need to do or ask T for your protection.