(((((rainbow)))))
I know how hard and how empty it is to just kind of exist from session to session. No matter what happens in the session, it can't live up to a week's worth of waiting for it night and day. No matter how much I trust my T, she is going to make mistakes that cause me pain.

I don't know what the answer is for you. I am trying to work on building up my actual life so I have less free time on my hands, but it's hard when my anxiety keeps me inside my apt most of the time. I'm going back to school this fall b/c I can do it online and it gives me an avenue toward having a more full life someday. I hope.