What if you just let yourself love your T, Rainbow, without judgment?? The more I judge how I feel the bigger and more confusing and upsetting my feelings get. When I just let myself feel what I'm feeling without judgment, it feels...better, I guess.

I love loving my T. It feels like a gift to have him in my life. I almost feel like that is where I'm learning about love, and now I can apply what I've learned to my real life - to my H, and my kids, and my friends, and hopefully someday, even me. I couldn't have learned what I needed to about love though if I didn't just give in and let it be what it was.

Wishing you peace, (((((((((rainbow))))))))