My dearest Sanity,

Thank you so much. Your comments always seem to help. Your intelligence and thoughtfulness go a long way with me. Your words of wisedom are poetic. Although I have no degrees, I do have the wisedom living with this dredful condition most of my life.
So I try to live my life by the golden rule. I try very hard to treat people the way I would like to be treated, but it can be destressing when you realize that the average person can be very hurtful without even trying. I bit backwards don't you think. Life and the world would be a much nicer place if we all lived that way.

I know how hurtful and painful peoples actions, and words can be. Especially when those people are ones, you know, or love, or a part of your family. Trust and respect are hard ones for me, because I've been hurt so much by the ones that I have trusted, respected, and loved.
Respecting myself and trusting myself are very hard. But I am trying. For reasons unknown to me I am good at giving advise, but trying to follow my own advise is very difficult. The self doubt and fear still to this day are holding me back.

You mentioned being your authentic self. Boy, you said a mouthful. How in the world do we get through all the bull, how do we know what our true self is? I believe that this a very long journey that I would have to take alone, which I'm not very good at either. (being alone)
I wish that you and I lived closer to each other, I really believe that we would be great friends. Not saying your not now. You know what I mean. Words can only give so much comfort. There is nothing like actually being able to touch the people who have come to mean so much to you.
Well dear one, I have rambled on enough. Going for now, TTYS