tree, I am going to try to do that, to just accept my feelings for my T. Thank you for your wishes. What is hard for me is that, having experienced the feelings I did during what I call our "container interaction", which felt like "THIS IS WHAT I'M MISSING; THIS IS WHAT I WANT" I was disappointed this week when I didn't feel the same way. When I feel that love, I just want more of it. I told T in an email and during the session how important that interaction was to me. She said she understood. But I can't expect her to always say things to me that make me feel loved. Instead, she says we will work on learning about those feelings more. I want to FEEL them, not work on them! What I'm saying is that I did let myself feel those good feelings, but then they were gone.