Thanks for replying ((((Evening))))

My mother is an alcoholic always has been, worse in the last 25 years; I do know what it is like to be unloved and abused; she would drink after taking vallium and I had to bring her round. What I was trying to say is that your life seems so confused. I wasn't indicating that you should take meds, if that is your decision not to then that is ok and your decision. Considering your mothers drug abuse your reaction to pills is natural and admirable...I'm not so strong as to be able to make headway without meds.

I don't think you are a narcissist I think you are reacting to the things that have happened to you and you need to be able to trust; you will settle that in your own time. As someone who has been constantly rejected by my (ex) family I eventually had to walk away rather than try to be part of a family that didn't want me to be part of the familyl I understand just how it hurts and how much anger it brings up.

Each person has a different way of dealing with things and each person deals with things in their own time. I was attempting to help you not aggravate you, so please forgive me if I did.

I know you won't believe this and that is ok because I understand where you are coming from; but I was very genuinely concerned about you when you started this thread. All I can do is stick around and support you for as long as it takes...