Evening,

My upbringing looked like living with royalty compared to yours but it isn't yet that I don't easily trust anyone and understand perfectly why you don't, either. Recently, a bunch of well-meaning church ladies criticized me for not asking for help when I needed it (putting the blame for THEIR inaction on ME) and I told them that when your mother beats you for being a bipolar child and behaving like a bipolar child you learn quickly not to trust anyone and it's hard to shake that off throughout your life. My mother and father were also both alcoholic so I sort of know where you are coming from. I also lived more than half my life un-medicated because I was not diagnosed until late in my adult life. There are good things about being unmedicated and there are definitely the bad things about it.

That's the beauty about choosing - it's YOUR choice and YOUR decision. You get to be responsible for your own destiny for once in your life. At any time, you can change it. I happen to choose the medication route because it helps me. But I support you 110% in your right to choose.