WePow, yes it helps a lot, what you said. At my session, T told me that she would tell me when the emails would be too much for her, but at the time I told her I only need to send one after my session! I'm just extra needy right now, or like I said, trying to "get it out of my system" though I don't know if that's possible. Maybe I want to see how far she'll let me go, or how far I will go, in order to see if I "jump off a cliff", will she be there to catch me?

I've always stopped myself in therapy. Stopped the feelings. I desperately don't want to do that, and she's the first T who has welcomed email to express my feelings.

Far, how did the neediness disappear for you? Why doesn't it matter that she can't give you what you want? What did you want? How do you get it now? Do you mean love, like I want? And, yes it means something to me that you think my T is good. I always got negative feedback about my former T so I don't trust myself completely any more. thank you!