Peaches,
I don't think you are a fool at all !! I think your therapist needs to know these parts of you, she has no way of reading your mind so unless they are expressed she will never know how what she did or didn't do affects you.

I think you wrote that very clearly. I can totally relate to not wanting to express attachment for fear of rejection. I keep walls up between my therapist and I for that very same reason. To keep myself safe, while I know its because of past hurts, I still am too protective of myself. I have been hurt and I am afraid to go out on that ledge and be hurt again, not just yet anyways.

I think you were totally brave to let that out. I believe many therapists have a hard time accepting how clients feel about them, or don't particulary know how to respond to those types of emails......hahah perhaps because of their own insecurities....

You did great !! Thats why your in therapy in the first place, to understand who you are, how you feel and to work hard through those things. Please don't doubt your feelings, they are yours and they are real !!