Who makes fun of you? That is a pretty nasty thing to say.

I don't think what you are receiving is 'special treatment' - i think it is treatment. Btw what is the difference between an eating disorder specialist and a nutritionist....isn't that a massive cross over in job roles?!

It sounds like you are so critical of yourself....why? Why do you think you rebel against your treatment plan? Do you think you don't deserve it, or are you are scared of failing or worse, them failing you? Maybe you could start discussing the need to act out in group/individual therapy, recognising you are acting out is the first step towards finding out why and eventually you may find a way to not.

It is a choice at the end of the day. But that doesn't mean to say making a choice is easy or simple....trust me I definately know that!! Sometimes it is beyond difficult to not behave in a way that makes us feel safe... Sometimes even if I can't change my behaviour I try hard to point out the simple things like 'i think i'm angry at you' even if i then go on to act upon that anger....etc and i try hard to listen to my therapist....(although, at times, that can make it worse because I read things into what she says) ....and tell myself that she is sitting and being there even if she doesn't have the first clue about anything! (which is how it can feel at times...)

On the positive side, to me, it does sound like you are engaging in many ways despite your rebellion because you are turning up to appts and sometimes that really is hard enough! My therapist always tells this to me when I get angry....it validates the part of me that does care and does want to get better.