Email the Samartians. It's helped me so much, I can't even tell you.;-) but yeah, I think you should see a T. I think I should too, so you're not alone.;-)

I know it's hard. It's always hard, and it is not your fault! Never say that, because you had nothing to cope with. But now you have to get help, even if it's just a little, or if you go see a T.

Just know that we're here, and we understand you.;/)