Sometimes I wonder if I'm bipolar, but reading the articles on it, I can't say I've had a true manic episode. I see a psychiatrist in a couple of weeks and I'm having a hard time trying to come up with a way to describe how I feel.

When I'm on an antidepressant, usually I feel pretty good if the dose isn't too low. But then there are times when I feel absolutely great, sense of humor is sharper, ideas pop up easier, self esteem perks up (but not grandiose or over inflated, just feel better than my usual "Oh, no one will ever like me" mood), I can get work done without much effort, I feel antsy and don't want to have to be tied to the computer.

Then there are other times when I feel in the absolute pits, can cry at the drop of a hat, feel sorry for myself, helpless, hopeless, want to crawl in bed and stay there, but can't because I have to keep going to hold everything together, yet can't get anything done because I feel so unable to move, can't concentrate, everything seems insurmountable.....

Get the picture?

WHAT is this?