[quote=sanityseeker;1439024]Its normal everyday stuff that just triggers so much anxiety for me I do just want to numb myself from everything. quote]

Hi sanityseeker,

I couldn't agree more. I have heard it said that these kinds of emotions are a gift. ie. "It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." Ha!
Anyway, I know just how you feel. I tend to get myself into these kinds of things too... and (as you can imagine) put myself down for it. Thing is... you haven't done anything wrong. We are only human. Your experience sounded wonderful, full of romance and emotion...
I think that the strong (hurt, confused etc) feelings you have now will pass soon. Just be gentle with yourself.
I bet you'll have another love story in your future.

E