Precious Tree.... you are NOT stupid. You are a human who is trying her best to make life workable and good. You know your T will not just dump you or give up on you. You know you have a very solid relationship with T. T knows you are not perfect. T knows you do things that you sometimes regret. T will be there for you and will not judge you. T will help you to learn how to make the best learning out of whatever it is that has happened. It will be OK when it all comes out and is worked through.

BIG BIG hugs to you - and you know we are all here in your corner!!!