Yes its hard sitting with those contridictory feelings, on one hand we want to be T's perfect client, and on the other as our curiosity takes over we feel we become sneaky and if T knew this about us they won't like us and we won't qualify to be T's favorite client..we go to therapy and talk about what was done to us etc, etc and then we suddenly we're faced with what we feel is commiting some sort of abuse ourselfs toward T, invasion of their privacy, but its been said many times here, FB privacy is down to the account holder...yes trying to sneakly find out more about T isn't a very nice feeling, if it is this painful then just tell yourself you dont want to feel this bad again and dont look any more, it will pass, it always does. But if you look again and feel bad again then thats a choice you make. I think we've all had the same curisioty your having, for me all I got to see was T's friends list and I felt so bad I deactivated my FB...but thats just how I felt about...I dont want to look anymore, the feeling of guilt just_aint_worth it...other then that, I mean it aint no biggy...its just what we do sometimes.