Jaikhan you are right. I need to be strong about it. I haven't needed him for along time. Its like a recurring nightmare that untill I figure out the deeper meaning I'll keep having it. I've told him no for the past few times but still comes back later like a bad penny. I've stopped believing anything he says I just need to finish within myself. Any suggestions on how to get the nightmare out of my head would be appreciated. I've already been starting a kung fu class to focus on and bring my self esteem up. Also keep my mind there instead of on my emotions.