So sorry Bobbi. Just found this thread.

You need to find some help in your community Bobbi. If you think you need to leave but think you can't then you need help. Help to leave or help to stay. What ever your safe options you need help to find them.

Being a ticking time boom isn't one of them.

Call a women's shelter. Talk to your doctor. Find out who you can turn to and ask for help. Find out what you can do. You think you know what you can't do. Find out what you can do. And do it fast.

You have options. Find help to sort them out. Don't wait for trouble to find you. Change the course if you have to.

I am so sorry you are faced with these stresses right now. Sorry your husband is drinking. Sorry your relationship is suffering. Sorry your safety is at risk.

Please don't feel helpless. You are never without the strength to work through this. Never without the wisdom to know what to do next. You are never helpless or powerless to do what you need to do. You are smart enough to know what is next.

It can be what you want it to be. You don't have to wait for it to happen. You can make things happen. Husband in or out of the picture you can make things better.

Don't let your rage own you Bobbi. Turn the passion on to find a way to turn things around for you.