I'll never get over my issues there are too many and I am in too much CONSTANT panic with horrific scary thoughts

it's impossible not possible to overcome a fear of aging and dying

I don't want to die soon and leave my kids

I just want to be normal

I wasted my entire day with my kids because of my panic, I took xanax and ativan which knocked me out for the entire day and now I am in panic again

my parents and brother are here so they entertained my kids

but it deeply hurts that I am so tortured by this that I cannot even find comfort in anyone or anything even my kids

there's no way out

all my dreams are shattered

why did my life have to be ruined and end at 36

I don't understand