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i want to go to therapy like everyone here
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It is a very good idea to not compare. It might even be helpful if you don't read a lot here for a while. I only say that because it was good for me.
Everyone's therapy is different and you deserve your own therapy.
Wanting to be seen, to be known, and protecting yourself from it at the same time is hard.
I wonder if you think you have to talk about very big things, very profound things. Or things "right" for therapy. It's okay to talk about anything.
I saw my therapist for 9 months before I really trusted her and then it was tentative. But I decided I was going to talk about anything and if it wasn't for therapy, then so be it. I began by talking about baking Christmas cookies!
I still struggle. We talk about all the fears, some I am learning about yet. I still have those time when I am happy to be going to therapy, then I sit down and ... nothing. As if all my thoughts have dived under the carpet, are hiding in closets, and I feel totally unaware that they are even there. It is very frustrating.
You may feel like you are stuck, but you are moving toward being able to talk. Keep talking about the fears you have about talking for now. That's okay.