Hi jiakhan

I read from the 2nd of July to yesterday. In all honesty it sounded like there never was a relationship other than the one you created online. I started to get concerned at what I was reading and was worried that you may be a stalker.

As I read and realised that you certainly have had ideas and support fromo a number of people I came to the decision that you just don't have a clue as to what is really going on in your life. You have several posts regarding this one guy and in each one you give a different indication as to how you are feeling about what happened and how things are panning out.

I honestly urge you to get therapy from a psychiatrist and if they suggest medication I would agree with them. Therapy is a mutli-pronged tool which works best when used correctly and as suggested.

Until your mind is on a level you may have continued troubles in dealing with relationships and in handling relationships realistically