Thanks

It does help to read your words. I think I have this fear that I'm not totally letting myself feel that T will TERMINATE me. He is very open with self-disclosure, but...I don't know, it wasn't just his space that I saw, it was his FAMILY'S space, and that feels really icky and intrusive to me. I keep trying to imagine his reaction. It really could be anything from "how did you like the house?" to "I can't work with you anymore"...

We have SUCH a long-standing relationship, and this isn't a pattern for me - it's the first time in almost 3 years that I've done something like this - so I hope it will be okay. I know it's natural to be curious.

Sunny, what you said rings really true for me- I do tend to be much more careful about other people's boundaries than my own. And if I feel like I've crossed a boundary, it's very shameful and uncomfortable for me. Like now

I guess the one good thing that's come of this is any curiosity I have about T and his personal life has completely dissipated. I realize now that I don't really want to know about T's personal life. If we were friends, I would for sure...but as T/client, I want things to just be how they are. T self-discloses quite a bit, and that is PLENTY for me.

I e-mailed to see if he has an opening tomorrow (I see him Tuesday), because I would REALLY like to see him twice this week before I go out of town. He's usually all booked up, but we'll see.