I don't where to start but I just never had much connection with them in my teen years, when I was young I craved all the attention I could get but don't remember much but going to the sitters as my mom worked hard for cash and I guess my dad did too, he would party a lot and not be home much from what my moms told me.

Anyways recently I find myself tired of being around my family, they just give me headache after headache.

My dad blows 7 grand in under a month on god knows what, he says he's working but there is no money coming in and he lets people walk all over him and use him and instead of yelling at them he takes it out on us for any little thing. I suspect he's either cheating on my mom which I wouldn't be surprised about or he's using drugs but I don't think it's that because other than his anger and moodiness there is no other change physically like red eyes, sweat , weight loss, ect.

My mom I love her but I don't know sometimes shes mean and emotionally abusive about my imperfect body and sometimes shes very nice. I dont know what to think. I have borderlines and schizo pal and it's hard to tell what's real and what's not.. I'm a sensitive individual so sometimes things aren't as bad as they feel. I cant eat around my mom because I feel like she's judging me and it hurts.

I don't know what to do or think, this week my mom called me a stupid ***** and just now my father called me a stupid b***h. I'm old enough to move but I don't wanna feel like I'm abandoning them but I can't stay in an emotionally abusive environment, it's so harmful and who knows what drastic thing I'd do if I lost control of my emotions...

I have a younger brother also, who listens to my mom and I feel he is loved more than I even though he's a brat.

Someone please help me I don't know what to do.