Quay,

As far as I know- your post is fine here.
Childhood experiences can be so confusing sometimes- trying to remember can be difficult.

I really really agree with "myself's" comments- about how a therapist should not "suggest" anything to a client. All the ideas of the clients experiences should come from the client only! If you never have brought up sexual abuse -- then neither should your therapist. I think if it did happen-- then you will remember it when you are ready to remember.

I hope I'm not sounding too harsh--- I just think if I was in your shoes and was looking for answers it would be hard to ignore suggestions by a trained professional.

Not knowing all about ourselves can be frustrating-- perhaps we should trust that if it was meant to be a known fact-- then it will come to us at the right time.

Hope your search finds healing for you

mandy