waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too many replies to read through all of them... but.. i didn't see one that spoke the whole truth and that is that no *place* or people or anything makes your happiness or breaks it. One should not make irrational decisions for escape unless one's life is in physical immediate danger and then it wouldn't be irrational

But.. calm yourself... separate the two situations because you are clouding your judgment with emotion. Happiness is important, moving forward is important and those do weigh in, but you are building the place you are into an unrealistic hell mentally. You are safe, fed, housed and more or less ok - so no tiger chasing you today, ok?

step outside of the deep passion to run for cover back home where lollipops grow from trees and happiness is everywhere Yes, deliberate sarcasm because EVERY place is just a place and 99% of how you do is due to how you look at it. You're internally equating losing the sale to never ever ever getting away and we simply 100% must be miserable until we do! Well.. if that is how you see it, then that is how it will play out.

For god's sake.. get a realtor to sell your house. Rent it out and move back home while you wait for it to sell. Put your stuff in storage and have a realtor or someone manage the rental property. Those are practical solutions to the "trap" your head is creating, and believe me... you can't move anywhere that will stop those, you have to consciously stop them right where you are now.

deep breaths... k? Life is ok, you are ok.. and whether or not you like the outcome, things will work out somehow, some way.

peace