I was assigned to a new pdoc at my psych hospital some months ago. Right from the start he made it clear that he didn't do therapy, that he was all about meds management, and that his primary focus was research. That was ok with me as I have a wonderful T who I see for therapy, and frankly this pdoc has all the therapeutic warmth of a dead carp. But as some of you may know, my life is seriously messed up at the moment with a relapse, a car crash that was at least subconciously a SU attempt. Well my pdoc and my addictions Dr. got to talking, with my permission and they both agree I need more psychiatric support. So my pdoc now wants to see me for an hour every Thurs. throughout the rest of the summer.

On one hand I'm glad to be getting the extra support, and since it's covered by provincial health insurance it's not costing me anything, but I am seriously uncomfortable with this guy & I have a hard time openning up and trusting new people. This is going to be excruciating. And I know I have to go along with it, as I have to do everything I can to show that I'm trying to get sober and stable so that he doesn't report me to the ministry of transportation and get my licence pulled. So every time I see him, I feel like i have that threat hanging over my head.

He is a super competent psychiatrist and a wizzard with meds so I know I'm lucky to have him, it's just the idea of therapy with him once a week all summer is really scary.

--splitimage