Googley, it is my good fortune -- and that of others -- to be acquainted with you through this revealing forum. I've read many of your posts and can't doubt the depth of your all-too-real pain.
I wish I could banish your pain. I wish I could do more than offer words and smilies. All I can do is testify your words and care reach me, reach us, and that we hope for your happiness.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.