thank u rhiannon. i kno he has to b afraid. i kno i need a stable environment, but my family life is not. my mom is so depressed nd just the thought of watching her sitting there makes me sad. i needed to get out nd am glad that i did...she is great at placing blame nd guilt trips on everyone around her.

my bf has told me before that he wants to marry me. nd that i need to just give him time. idk how to do that....i am literraly smothering him nd i dont know how to stop.
it was his suggestion for me to move out here. i knew we wouldnt live together, i thought i could handle it.

when i worked 2 jobs back to back i was fine...i am having a hard time now that i am free on the weekends...i kno i need to figure this out