Oh wow. I seriously feel like I'm going to throw up.

I think a lot of this is old stuff - the fear of being punished, the fear of love being taken away, the fear of someone finding out I'm "bad". But it's hard to separate that from now. I don't know what feelings are now, and what feelings are old.

And then there is all of the stuff this has brought up for me related to my current life

AND the guilt and shame I feel about crossing a boundary. ugh

My session is in 8 hours. I have an EXTREMELY busy day ahead, so i know the time will fly.

scared.