((((((((((((((Kimmydawn)))))))))))))))))) It soundsl ike you made a wise decision for both your father and yourself prior to his death. Apparently it was a healing process that you went through. Now may be the time to take care of you. You made arrangements to take care of your father and you may want to step back until you are ready to continue on. I agree it is a good suggestion to discuss this with your therapist as it helps sort out through all the emotions that are entangled in such a decision. Please take care and I am sure whatever you do will be the best for you. Be safe.