Thanks for your words of encouragement. I understand what you are saying and it is much appriciated, however I am a conflict of everything I
I project. There is no reality for me, neither is there a normal. I have lived in many states, places and done many different things....never sticking to one thing and always on the move. Never getting to know anyone for too long and can cut people off after knowing them for years. I trust no one, not even myself, for I know the resident evil that lies just below the surface. I'm no good....I just project what I want others to think of me.
I am a deciever......
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Originally Posted by Crew
Hey (((((50guy)))))
Now 
Now that you wrote out Everything the abusers told you, you remembered, yes you did.
Now you get to reverse that in your mind and in a journal too perhaps. My first Therapist told me to do the opposite that my abusers told me that. We have a similar entry in our journals Show them they can't win, show 'em!!
You are not evil, in my opinion. When someone says they are very very evil that tells me from having a similar experience that you were hurt so bad.
I am so sorry you were hurt and I am so sorry that you feel worthless and evil. I am so glad you are here with us all. Maybe and my hope for you is that you begin to find and believe in you.
I feel fortunate to know you, thanks for sharing and I really do hope that you can turn all that back on them someday....healing is harder then hard but it sure is worth it in the end. It's nice looking up at that light I only imagined that was at the end of the tunnel. It's here, just letting you know.
I wish you all the energy and drive to continue your healing. Your are a survivor and screw those that hurt you. Just remember, be easy on yourself and also good to yourself too.
My system can think back and remember the dreadful feelings that you have now, please just know people are here for you. If you need to talk pm me. If you want to talk to someone else pm them. You do think somewhat of yourself ya know? Because you wrote such a powerful introduction about yourself but I saw what they had you believe!
We believe in you....we really, really do. Oh and through PC, people will support you.  our new friend, goodluck!!! You have others now that care. Why you may ask. Because we all have different situations yet I can only speak for myself that I was told that over and over and you have to get HEAD STRONG and say NO, it's my life now.
Phooey on them!  Crew and  to PsychCentral  |