OK So I need some advice. Back in Feb. I looked up an ex but he was also my best friend it had been 20 years since I saw or talked to him. I am married and have been for the past 20 years. Our marriage is good we have our issues nothing major just normal ups and downs of marriage. Anyway I talked to my husband about finding my old friend and he was fine with it. Now when I went looking for him on the internet all I wanted was to see how he was etc. Nothing more. Anyway it was really easy to find him way too easy. Long story short. We started talking and he started telling me all this love lost stuff and how I was the one etc. We ended up having a short internet affair. UGH!!! We live in different states. He told me how much he loved me and always has etc. BTW he is married as well. Cant believe I did that. But my husband found out about how much we were talking to say the least he was really angry had every right to be. I never expected any of this to happen and now regret finding him but cant stop thinking about him or wanting to at least talk to him. I didnt realize that I was carrying all these feelings and emotions for him for so long. And now I am suck in this limbo and cant stop (I guess the word is Pining for him). And this is not fair to my husband. How can I love 2 men like that. And my ex has moved on and stopped all contact with me. How do I get my emotions under control and move on. and he was my first love.