Thank you for all the support and advice.

Rhiannonsmoon, with my situation with my son I often have to stay 2 counties away when my son is in the hospital, which is fequently. He is 8 months and we have been home a total of 67 days since he was born. I also have a five year old daughter. I am unable to work and my husband owns his own business and works all the time. So my moms usually helps us with groceries or gas when I need to get back and forth and things like that. It not always financial stuff. she also helps take care of my daughter while I am staying over at the hospital and my husband is working. She doesnt usually provide alot of help but the help she does give she usually bring it up later that she always has to help me. And usually I dont even ask her to put gas in my car or get me grocery stuff. She just does it on her own. I tell he all the time how much I appreciate the help she gives me but she still says things that make me feel guilty about it. As for my dad he stopped talking to me long before my husband came along. And he doesnt talk to me now because, in his words, I am just like my mother. which by the way my mother always says I am just like my father. Truthfully I dont want to be like either of them. I just want to figure out who I am and be able to live my life without feeling guilty for everything. And you are right it is very involved, so I tried to condense it as much as possible because I felt like I had already written a book (lol). Anything else you want to know just ask...