(((((((((PC)))))))))))

I know he hasn't called in the past for whatever reason. I guess this just feels scary because of what we're in the middle of. I feel SICK.

My biggest fear is that he'll teminate me. That I'll walk out of there today and it will be the last time. I honestly don't know if I could go on...I think I'd have to drive straight to the hospital. After all of these years of building up trust and attachment, you know? That probably won't happen. But what if it does?

I feel like we'll work through it, as long as he lets me keep coming. He's done things that made me angry before, and I've ALWAYS forgiven him. I hope he will forgive me.

Ugh, session in an hour.