(about my sister being wanted and me not)

Sunny - in my defense - I say it not because of the pix, but because of what I know of the story of our parents. Despite later traumas, my sister shows the marks of very secure early attachment, whereas I do not.
By the time I was born, things were falling apart in our family; my Dad had beaten & tried to kill my mother rmany times (even while pregnant with me). My mom had already seen a T who said, you've got to get out of there, he is going to succeed one of these days.
I'm amazed they even got close enough for her to get pregnant one more time, but it happened.
Faced with the prospect of supporting us alone somehow, I think the last thing she wanted was a newborn, in addition to a 3 yr old and twins age 1 yr.
BTW if I read the situation correctly, I don't blame my Mom for having that feeling toward having me; I do blame her for some things, but not for that; she had some incredibly hard times.