Today I am feeling kind of overwhelmed and for the last few days I think I've been ion a slightly manic and destructive state. I believe I told yall my tdoc left me for another job at another center. She left me a packet of inf that she thought could help me, one was a number of a lady to help me get my meds free or cheap ( I dont have a job and am waiting for a decision on disability) I found out that even if I get the help it will still be $6 a med and with 5 different meds I still cant afford it. Plus the main one that helps is not covered and I would have to pay out of pocket for it anyways which again I cant afford.

My car ins is due and as my premium went down I found out today I only have to pay <$20 this month and still may have to cancel because I just dont have it.

I miss my tdoc so ****ing bad, I used to talk to her everyday and today has been one of those days I REALLY needed her... She left me a note with the packet of info explaining the people to me and it made my cry just reading it.

IDK what to do anymore, I have been mixing my meds and taking other "things" I've gotten a hold of recently. Who knows what It'll do to me, who cares. I just wish I could finally be done with this world.....

P.S. Thanks for this thread again, it's my favorite one....