Thank you I will try to push the negative thoughts out and replace them with positives...

I still do think of Mark (all angry thoughts lately.. am sure they will fade over time)...

Spoke with Louis for and hour and a half last night... he brought up all the insecurity stuff.. god I blushed.. told him to just pretend that I never said anything to him about it... but he wouldn't let it drop... said he was REALLY happy that I told him, made him understand me a little more... and that he wants me to be able to tell him everything.. any little feeling and thought...

Seems like I have a good one here.... but still in the early stages... 'honeymoon' phase LOL but sure does feel like I have known him a lot longer

Marjan, I am sure that both you and I will settle into blissful relationships.. have kids and live happily ever after xxxxxxx
I want to be that 80 year old couple walking on the beach still in love holding hands..sigh...