Making friends is like breaking an egg, once you tell someone something you can't "untell" them. And many people thesedays are so very self centred and would hang the phone up if you called them at 3 in the morning. I however would think you had died if I got a call at 3 in the morning, and that would freak me really badly...

It is complicated to make friends when you don't have any and you don't know how to make any. There is a book titled "how to win friends and influence people". I've never read it but I am told that it works. You could read that and get some ideas?

I'm very happy with the way my life is as an agoraphobic. I don't want people coming here, I don't want phone calls, I don't want anyone interfering in my life. I'm happy to sit in my chair, listening to the waves crashing on the beach, making lunch, sharing my life with my partner. The only thing that would make it perfect is if we had a boat to live on.

Maybe I choose not to have friends because they have let me down after I gave everything. When I had nothing left to give they turned on me. When the mental illness got bad and I needed help they turned on me like a cobra on a mongoose. I gave from the heart. Maybe I'm angry at that treatment, but thats the way it is if I am.

I really hope you make friends MM...we all deserve to have someone we can count on and you are no different in that...You could always join comic.com

RHiannon