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Originally Posted by onlymedid
T and I are trying to work on a time line of "my" life. Living with DID makes this process very difficult.
There are some things I can only remember based off of the ages of my other family members.
There are years I don't remember. There are people I don't remember, but they are in pictures.
Today I had to tell her again about an incident that happened when I was 10, 11 or 12, I don't know.
It is an unsolved mystery in our family and it bothers me so much that it haunts me.
Part of me doesn't know if I want to keep doing the time line because it's so scary. I am afraid of other things coming up that I don't want to know about now. At the same time, I know that there is so much being held up inside that I "need" to know about.
Has anyone else ever done a time line? How did it work out for you?
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doing the time line with my therapist helped me a lot to put my life in order, gain closure on some of the traumatic events and it also helped me to gain self esteem and confidence in myself. our time line consisted of photos from my childhood and adult life, writings, drawings and other things from each part of me, it had everything about me the good and the bad on it. It is now a complete description or Diary of my life from birth to present day and its on going still even though I rarely see my therapist and its no longer something my therapist and I do. for me its a tangible reminder of my being me a creative and worthwhile person who has been through the fires and back.
some people do journals and diaries, I traded those things in for the more complete version of my life and times of Amanda - my time line. Sometimes during the harder times I pull out my time line and see where I have been and where I am now and all thats in between. It gives me hope and lifts me back up out of the depressiveness and darkness of the harder days. it shows me that I made it this far I can and will continue to survive as long as I continue to go on and not give in to the dark days.
