Welcome dandelionfalls
im glad you found us - though sorry you have the need
you seem to have worked out what the problem is and what you want that is really great
have a read of the stickies at the top of the page they are very helpful -
I wish you heaps of luck with looking for a new therapist and hope you find one wiht PTSD experience
take care and keep posting
P7
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet