My p-doc told me that I have a mild borderline personality disorder, but sometimes it feels like it isn't all the mild.

I don't know why, but it seems like I have a LOT of trouble interacting appropriately with people online. I don't have any social life in real life, so most of my problems result from online interactions.

I do horrible things online. I make threats to my life often. I e-mail inappropriate things to people. I never threaten other people, I always threaten myself. This is a big problem for me.

If I do this often, people will stop believing my threats. I often feel like I'm dangerous to myself and I don't know what to do about it.

People react very badly to my inappropriate posts and this makes me feel even worst...driving me closer to the edge. My behaviour hurts me and others very much.

I'm just wondering how other people with BPD handle their online behaviour. Is it just me? Why am I having such a difficult time with this? I just seem very disordered according to my behaviour online. It's horrible.

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