Well since I am at my parents it is a non problem because I can't smoke here it isn't an option so I do fine. It is just a huge problem when I am home by myself. I smoke because I am bored/lonely..etc. I have to admit I did smoke a couple when I was at home and boy howdy did I beat myself up about it. I am beginning to think this is something I won't ever be able to beat. My T and I were talking about it a couple of weeks ago and we determined that I smoke because I don't think I am worthy of being smoke free. I don't have the self esteem to tell myself Jan you are worthy of beating this addiction so just do it. So as soon as I feel better about myself maybe I can win this fight.

Jan