Tonight I broke my cell phone. This may sound crazy to some. However, I had to do something oppose to nothing. Pretending I could just not call him was very stupid of myself. SO the only other option was to break my only tool I have for communication. I suppose this is the step in the right direction. After all if he loves me then this will be a stepping stone to get him to take action himself. ITs not his wife he won't leave, it's his kids. I undestand but enough is enough. I am sick of this affair. I can't take it anymore. Unfortunatly love makes us weak no matter how unhealthy it is to us, we continue after it. I hope this helps me to distance myself. To try and get over him. Hey, atleast I am doing something. I should be applauded for that. It makes sense in my bipolar boderline world of chaos. Break my phone, cease talk. No phone no talk. (He is long distance......) Maybe He just makes me that crazy. AND Trust me, it was not as easy as one would think to just run over a cell phone and break it....I ran over it like ten times and it didn't do anything...I opened it, as it was a flip phone and still it didn't break...I dragged it with my car....still nothing.....finially it did, but I had to rip the display from it..............Audiovox 8900.....superub Quality......recommened as asolid phone....practically unbreakable..........REGARDLESS.....I might need some major support the next few weeks quitting him cold turkey....It is harder than quitting drugs, this addiction is just chronic.........grrrrrr.....thx for listening........ill keep you posted.........three weeks I can find out what my baby is too....I am excited.....although still I have mixed feelings about doing this alone, if I can financially and emotionally......I am sure I will be fine....it's the little things that break me.....