lots of mush going on in my head,

community nurse came today, nice man but no good at providing support, keeps going on about fme funding a way to motivate myself and planning my day.

SI several times, know i will again it helps with the feeling of emptiness.

As for bpd, today think that they have got it wrong and maybe in a crisis i loose control but most of the time i do absolutely fine. tommorrow or in an hour I mught feel different. basically i am doing this on my own, dont expect help and know its up to me.

fed up.