Wow, I'm sad that your experiences have been so unfavorable...

I'm curious about what is triggering your response about not presenting your anxieties here and assuming that it makes everyone else anxious too. I am not becoming anxious due to you presenting your anxieties, so I don't quite understand.

I am interested, though, in you getting the support you are looking for - all the way from empathy to constructive feedback....

I'd be interested in reviewing the list you created to see if there's any way I can help provide you with some feedback. I understand if you might not want to post it. I know that I would feel way too vulnerable and exposed, leaving myself open for some kind of backlash or painful feedback. If you'd like to PM me, I'd be happy to review it and give you my feedback.