I think it's because I didn't get much sleep last night, but today I have been so easily triggered, it is ridiculous. I normally can hide it when I am triggered in front of people, and save my reactions for when I am alone. But today someone said the word "penetration," just the word, and I started to panic and cry right then and there and thought I was going to pass out. And I was at WORK. Way to give yourself away, jexa. I mean, what else would make a person freak out like that at just a word? Now the two people who saw me just HAVE to know that I have PTSD.. and could probably guess at what trauma I've been through, too. Oh yuck.

Right now it is raining outside my window and I keep jumping just from the rain hitting my window. A second ago when it thundered, I screamed and jumped out of my seat. I am so on edge. Worst of all, my boss keeps asking me if I'm okay. Obviously I am not handling things well right now