((((((((((((((Lex))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry you are in so much pain. Your post has really touch me. I hope that by talking to your T, you will feel a little more at peace.

Have you ever thought about making a scrap book about your mother so that everytime you feel sad, you can just look through it and feel comforted. Just a thought.

Hugs for you ((((((((((((((((((Lex)))))))))))))))))))))