Trying to live for the moment from now on.. don't want to push him away.. had a moment of panic last night that I really wasn't falling for him and that I just wanted so much to be in love that I was putting pressure on myself... ARRRGGHH

But today.. with a clearer mind I realise that i do really like him - just need to RELAX - but how!!??

He will be back in 4 days... and I am starting to get excited... can't wait. Plus I figure after 4 weeks apart, if everything seems good when he gets back then I can settle my mind and just go with the flow - he's a good guy (I think!!!??)