Gosh I haven't been in bp forum for awhile. Had been sick for months so wasn't anywhere. I'm feeling both up and down at the moment. I never cld figure how that works but its happening. I take my meds everyday the anxiety has been killing me. Just had pdoc appt uping one med to see what happens. So irritable as well. Tired so so tired. Yet I can't sleep. If I do fall asleep its not for long and I don't go back. Want it to be over. Want to be able to be done with bp and anxiety forever.