Holy cow, owllover99! That just sucks. Whether it's bipolar-specific or not, we're all in this together, and care about you very much, so no worries on the "it's not bipolar" front. Wow. Just wow. Keep us posted, ok?
(Trippin... "arse clowns"??? LOL. On Father Ted one time, "arse biscuits" was said, and just about slayed me... funny expressions, but seriously, what else to make of these... these... entities to which language barely expresses their lack of humanity?)