Please don't give up whoswho. I haven't been here much so I missed this until now. I am so sorry you are feeling so defeated right now. That is such a lousy place to be. I hope you can start to feel better soon.

It is so hard to keep on keepin on sometimes. So hard to find that something that can turn things around. So hard to find something to give you a little bit of hope.

Don't give up. Find reason to feel positive about something. Any little thing with do to get you started. Keep adding to the list so that you can know there is reason for hope.

You are not alone and it can get better. Work it the best you can one day at a time.

Thinking of you, take good care.